Monday, May 4, 2009
-3:54 PM
Im feeling undescrible now. I dont even know if theres such word like undescrible. Sigh~
I just had a quarrel again with my mum & seriously im sick of it. Its like a daily routine which i dont wish to carry out. I just could not control my emotions so yeah i shouted not minding 
my language. Who can control their emotions when they are hurt by the words by their loved ones? So can you just kept quiet and enjoy the hurtful words? No, i cant. Im too hurt to keep quiet. And so, i voice out. Its my fault for shouting at you but i actually didnt mean it. I apolgise. Im too ashame to aplogise to you by looking at the face of yours. Sigh~
my language. Who can control their emotions when they are hurt by the words by their loved ones? So can you just kept quiet and enjoy the hurtful words? No, i cant. Im too hurt to keep quiet. And so, i voice out. Its my fault for shouting at you but i actually didnt mean it. I apolgise. Im too ashame to aplogise to you by looking at the face of yours. Sigh~Am i totally at fault? But i guess im partially. If you wont say those words, i wont be shouting like one motha fcuker. Sigh, once again. You said i did not put my effort in finding a job. What ive been doing for the past 3motnhs then. Had i not been working. Damnn. That really boils me up as i know i really put my whole effort in finding a job after my o levels with the fcukin hot weather and some false hopes from some of the places that i had been interviewed. However, i did not gave up and i try continue to find till i get one. The reason i left the job with the thoughts to further up my studies. You should be happy that im leaving for good. Sigh~
If i have the money, i wont be asking even a cent from you. As such, i understand the situation that you are facing. Sigh~ So do you want me to continue studies or just live with the things which i had.
I guess its not enough to just live with it due to economic crisis. Ohh my, im just helpless.
How i wish that god will strike me rich one day. Once again, i apologise though for raising my voice at you.
Oh yer,saye sedar saye anak yang kurang ajar. Maaf dipinta. Akan saye harungi semua ini dengan kesabaran. Tuhan, tolonglah berikanku kekuatan dan ketabahan untuk menempuhi segala
cubaan di dunia ini. Amin.
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